i might just be aware that this post is public

but i might just not have an inkling of care that others can read it.

so what?

i am pretty sure that your friends will be able to see this and realize how much in the hopeless category of hopeless romantic i am really in to.

i just do not care. well, maybe, a bit ’cause they’re your friends.

but it does not change my reason for writing an oh-so-public blog tonight.

and i’m doing this just because i want to cherish this moment; this moment when i want you to know what i am really feeling.

and i want to tell you, I Love You.

i would not really be sure how you’d react that i’m writing this oh-so-darn-public declaration of what i’m feeling. perhaps, you’d be flushed and simply be out of words when you see this. probably, even be a little embarassed especially when you’re friends see this and start joking about this. i do apologize about that. but i would still not be sorry for writing this blog.

because for now, i am just writing for what i am thinking. the overflowing ideas in my mind are endlessly spilling; the memories can be unintentionally forgotten [knowing me and my short spanned memory]. but no. i cannot just let the treasured moments escape my mind; i cannot let myself forget. and so i do the best i could to preserve this preciously.

i write. just like what i really do best. and this blog will serve as my time capsule for the times we’ve been together. the ideas we’ve shared. and the relationship we’ve just started.

of course i would not be writing the small minute details that have happened for this week we’ve been together. it would be a gruesome experience for anyone who’d read how terribly cheesy we could really get when we’re together, i know. and those are simply moments i just want to keep for my self.

i am writing what i’m willing to share with people; my happiness when i am with you.

well, i might not really be into sharing the experience of that euphoria i feel; of course i’m definitely not sharing you [plus the fact that they wouldn't feel the same way i do anyway]. and you might not be the oh-so-romantic person or that i’d-fish-for-the-stars-for-you type of guy that would simply radiate-the-feelings-without-words and letting other people know about how you feel. you might simply the guy who’s just too mysterious to be figured out easily. or you might just not be talking quite often to let me know what you’re thinking. but i do not really mind.

because for the first week we’ve been together, i knew and felt deep in my heart that you care for me the same way i care for you.

well, you knew i did not really get it at first; it was simply hard to assume. but you helped me overcome my anxiety through your actions and your efforts to share your thoughts with me too. i cannot be utterly joyful with knowing you do care so much.

there simply cannot be words for my joy. i feel so blessed having you love me the way you do.

sometimes, i wonder how i’d become so lucky to actually have someone like you loving me. sometimes, i think whether i’d been so deserving to have such a blessing. but despite all those times, i always think that despite me not being too good or lucky, i still deserve having you beside me. and heck, i’d prove to anyone who’d ask that i do deserve this position of being beside you.

one time you posted a message thanking those great people whom you met in your life. i replied to you saying that when i meet you again, i promise i’d be great enough to be worth meeting again. you answered back then was that i am already one of those great people since greatness is unique to everyone. well, despite me doubting i am great now, i sincerely feel though that i can really have a potential to be great. and it is because a great person like you have showed me how it is done. and with you by my side, i think i’d be able to fulfill my promise of you meeting [and even being with] a great me in no time.

and now i’m nearing the end of this oh-so-public love letter. perhaps after i publish this and it receives 43hits from your friends again, i’d be blushing myself and saying “oh why did i put it on public again?” but then again, i know that when we talk about this, it’ll be a great laugh and i simply cannot resist seeing your smile.

so despite my premonition and fear of blushing in public, i’m sharing you i want you to know; how much i am so happy, blessed and honored to have someone like you to love in my life.